Hollow

(Serial Experiments Lain wallpaper from wallpaper flare)

I'm wide awake in bed, it's dark out and the cold ache in my soul is annoyingly hard to ignore.

Inside my spinning head there's doubt, I try to hold on, brake the rolling thoughts, fuck, why are they so unruly tonight?

I'm not in the mood to listen to music or play a video in the background, so I'm just kind of laying there.

The unfinished cup of water glistens in the ray of light coming in through the window, I've been staring at it for a while.

Constantly feeling like I'm about to cry, a shame that I can't pacify this underlying blight striking my psyche.

Tonight, just like every other night, I'll wonder why I have to fight so hard, despite things being alright I don't know why but I feel hollow.

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